Its June 1st, 2011, I’m Lidawma and this is what I’m thinking…
Crossroads – I believe that is what it is called. That is where I feel I am once again in my life. There are a number of options before me, none that I would have considered just a year ago. Life is not what it was and it has been difficult for me to accept. And still I think that maybe I don’t need to accept it, maybe things will change and I’ll get better and life will go on as normal. Then again maybe it won’t. I believe I have come to a point where I can look at new ideas, new directions and a new mindset. Its time to start enjoying life again, in whatever way I can.
I still need to do alot of work to get myself into mental shape. Inspiration came to me today via facebook. A link from a page I ‘like’d took me to a site full of positive motivation, ‘shine your brightest’, ‘create a life from your heart’ (http://christinaseitz.com/ ). To alot of people its just a lot of ‘hooey’ but today it just hit me in the right spot. It has inspired me to work on myself, on my mental attitude, to start a real heart-felt journal and take time to focus on what I want in life – something I have to reconsider as many of things I wanted are not possible at this time. I know there have to be many things I can still do that will bring me joy and happiness. And I know, if I really get honest with myself, that happiness comes from within and I can’t force it or find some magic that will just ‘make’ me happy. I have to dig deep and find that happiness that is in there, somewhere, hiding.
'Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.' Harold Whitman